2 Great Cynical Rants From The Goldfinch

10 Sep

>The Imperfectionists: An FAQ“But depression wasn’t the word. This was a plunge encompassing sorrow and revulsion far beyond the personal: a sick, drenching nausea at all humanity and human endeavor from the dawn of time. The writhing loathsomeness of the biological order. Old age, sickness, death. No escape for anyone. Even the beautiful ones were like soft fruit about to spoil. And yet somehow people still kept fucking and breeding and popping out new fodder for the grave, producing more and more new beings to suffer like this was some kind of redemptive, or good, or even somehow morally admirable thing: dragging more innocent creatures into the lose-lose game. Squirming babies and plodding, complacent, hormone-drugged moms. Oh, isn’t he cute? Awww. Kids shouting and skidding into the playground with no idea what future Hells awaited them: boring jobs and ruinous mortgages and bad marriages and hair loss and hip replacements and lonely cups of coffee in an empty house and a colostomy bag at the hospital. Most people seemed satisfied with the thin decorative glaze and the artful stage lighting that, sometimes, made the bedrock atrocity of the human predicament look somewhat more mysterious or less abhorrent. People gambled and golfed and planted gardens and traded stocks and had sex and bought new cars and practiced yoga and worked and prayed and redecorated their homes and got worked up over the news and fussed over their children and gossiped about their neighbors and pored over restaurant reviews and founded charitable organizations and supported political candidates and attended the U.S. Open and dined and traveled and distracted themselves with all kinds of gadgets and devices, flooding themselves incessantly with information and texts and communication and entertainment from every direction to try to make themselves forget it: where we were, what we were. But in a strong light there was no good spin you could put on it. It was rotten top to bottom. Putting your time in at the office; dutifully spawning your two point-five; smiling politely at your retirement party; then chewing on your bedsheet and choking on your canned peaches at the nursing home.”

“And, increasingly, I find myself fixing on that refusal to pull back. Because I don’t care what anyone says or how often or winningly they say it: no one will ever, ever be able to persuade me that life is some awesome, rewarding treat. Because, here’s the truth: life is catastrophe. The basic fact of existence — of walking around trying to feed ourselves and find friends and whatever else we do — is catastrophe. Forget all this ridiculous ‘Our Town’ nonsense everyone talks: the miracle of a newborn babe, the joy of one simple blossom, Life You Are Too Wonderful To Grasp, &c. For me — and I’ll keep repeating it doggedly until I did, till I fall over on my ungrateful nihilistic face and am too weak to say it: better never born, than born into this cesspool.”

9 Responses to “2 Great Cynical Rants From The Goldfinch”

  1. Jennifer Austin - Author September 10, 2014 at 11:03 am #

    Umm, is this from you or a quote? If a quote, who from? I suffer from depression and I have never been this mired in negativity. Don’t get me wrong, there are times I see the futile grinding of life. But I think most people are happy with it. They don’t need accolades and accomplishments, just quiet existence. I’m not one of those people, but I usually see my unhappiness as being my inability not to appreciate the beauty around me, as opposed to the beauty’s inability to be relevant.

  2. patb0309 September 10, 2014 at 5:41 pm #

    Nihilistic indeed- but very well written…

  3. TheValid September 11, 2014 at 5:51 pm #

    Love your blog! Very interesting. Check me out!

  4. Marianne Kranz September 15, 2014 at 11:21 am #

    Do you remember the characters who ranted? I am not sure if it is the boy or his Russian friend? Or someone else?

    • Kira Bindrim September 15, 2014 at 5:58 pm #

      Good Q! These are both from Theo, the main guy.

  5. Naïma September 28, 2014 at 9:09 pm #

    Wow! Awesome quotes indeed, definitely have to read this book!

  6. Anonymous November 24, 2015 at 6:38 pm #

    What page are these on? I would like to use one for an essay

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